I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about my practice and what it is I believe in, and what I want to be doing both magically and spiritually. I have had a bit of a lapse these past couple years where, while I still did practice on occasion, my witchcraft kind of fell to the back burner while I sorted out my life and this whole being an adult thing. And that’s fine, I know that Loki was beside me every step of the way as I made my life into what I wanted it to be right now, and that he’ll still be beside me as I continue to move forward in my mundane life as well as my magical one. I’ve felt little nudges from all my gods in all walks of my life, and while they certainly did not go ignored (I know better then to ignore a god) some of them did go unfulfilled while I prioritized the things in my life sort of wrongly. So, I’m making some magical, spiritual, and mundane New Years Resolutions so that I might get myself on a better track.
1.Read Tarot more often. This is something I used to do every single day, and it fell very far back in my practice. I enjoy divination, I’m good at it, but I have a hard time practicing when my space is cluttered and executive dysfunction kicks my ass sometimes and I don’t clean my room. So, I’m making a resolution to find a clear space and practice tarot AT LEAST twice a week, if not more, to get back in the swing of things.
2.Keep my space clean. This goes without saying as something that is important and something I haven’t been doing very well. Everyone falls behind a little, life catches up, you get tired and sore and dare I say a little lazy at times, and that’s ok. But I am resolving to try to keep things as clean as possible so I don’t fall too far behind.
3.Practice spellwork, or work on my grimoire every week. This doesn’t sound like a lot of time spent on spellwork, but when I say my magic really fell to the back burner, I mean it really fell to the back burner. I have been having a very hard time juggling my job and my writing and my practice and my life, it is hard. I’m not good at it yet. I only do spells when I think I need to, and I forget that spells can be done for little things too and that’s good practice. So I’m vowing to actively work on my spellwork or grimoire once a week, and to more often do little magic.
4.Stop eating so much goddamn fast food. Twice a month. I am limiting myself to twice a month. My laziness and unwillingness to cook at the end of the day has won me over far too many times, and I suffer for it. Even if I end up eating a pb&j for supper, I will not go through a McDonald’s after work just because I do not want to cook. It will be better on my body and on my wallet.
5.Establish a physical altar in my home. Ever since I moved into this apartment I haven’t had a physical altar at which to worship my gods. This has been fine, our relationship seeming more casual and relaxed as I offer them things at my kitchen counter or outside on the deck, and that’s okay but I have been missing a space at which to worship. My statues and things I have bought or made for the gods over the years are all around my apartment like decorations and I am fine with that because everywhere I look I am reminded of them. However, I do want an altar, just a simple little altar where I can offer, kneel in prayer, talk to them and feel like I am addressing something. This is difficult with two playful kittens in my house that like to knock everything they can get their paws on onto the floor, but this year I resolve to find a way to set up an altar, whatever form that may take for me, by the end of the year.
6.WRITE EVERYDAY. I know, I know. I’m a writer. I should have already been writing everyday. I actually am pretty good at following this one, the problem is I’m not WRITING WHAT I SHOULD BE WRITING. I had three whole weeks off from work for the holidays and I didn’t touch my novel once!?!? What is wrong with me?? I was gonna finish it!!! So, despite the fact that this one should be obvious I resolve to WRITE AT LEAST ONE GODDAMN PAGE OF MY NOVEL EVERY SINGLE DAY!!
7.Exercise. Yeah, I know, this one is on everyone’s resolution list every single year and often gets ignored. I mean, it’s only so far down because I’m not sure I’m actually gonna do it. I know I should. I really hate it. But I’ll ease myself back into it slowly and see where it goes from there. I know it’s good for me in the long run.
8.Figure out my Lucifer thing? It has been persistent and oddly present for the last few weeks, and I’m not sure I can just ignore it until he finally pops out of the woodwork and smacks me with it like Loki did. For one, I’m not sure he would, and for two, I’m not sure he’s even really there. I mean, I wrote a whole thing on why cross pantheon worship bothers me, but I think I’m just gonna have to bite the bullet and talk to Loki about it. I’m not fully committed to the idea of worshipping the devil, but I have to admit it is seductive to say the least. So I suppose my resolution is to do some more research, talk to Loki about my cross pantheon hang ups, and figure out how I feel about the whole Lucifer thing.
Yeah, so that is it. These are my resolutions for 2019, both magical and mundane. Hopefully I stick to even half of them because I am a notorious giver-upper. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯





